As everyone of my fren knew ... I'm having such a big prob in my love life .. I was fucking emo for the pass few day . luckily , the prob is solved now .
I'm ok with her . We're fren now and trying to know more about each other . This is the best way to solve this prob , isn't it ? More frens is better than more enemies .
you know ,
you're the only one who can love me no matter what happen .
you're the only one who can sacrifice yr time for me whenever I need someone to be by my side .
you're the only one who can forgive all my fault .
you're the only one who willing to let me hit or scold when I'm fucking angry
you're the only one who willing to sent me home no matter how late or how far is it...
you're the only one who willing to lend me a ear when I'm fucking pissed off .
you're the only one who willing to wipe off my tears when i cry like nobody business .
you're the only one who wilingl take care of me when i'm drunk like shit .
you're the only one who willing to spent money on me just to make me happy .
you're the only one who willing to do all of this to me ... the only one ..
why I cry is because you changed all by a sudden . I was shocked when the night you told me tht you don't care if we're going to break up or what .
I was fucking hurt .. you know am actually can't afford to lose you . I was too dependent on you . You did everything for me . suddenly , you told me tht you gonna leave me alone and I was like going to be crazy .
You even flirt wit other girl behind me and told lies for thousands time , how can I stand this ? I'm not tht tough as you seen .. I'm so so so so sad but then i cant find anyone who can listen to me .. So what i did is "shoot" you , disturb you , scold you , annoyed you ... and so on ...
I dont want to cry and I dont meant to disturb yr new life but everytime I saw tht you're being fucking happy but then i'm crying alone here . Try to stand by my side and think .. I bet you wont enjoy this feeling .
I'm sorry cause of saying all of this and I knew maybe some of you might got alot of "comment" on this . but who wont be sad ? who wouldn't want to be fren wit their ex bf/gf .. I just want to be happy ... I want to smile I want to laugh louder and I dont want switch on the light everynight , I dont want to cry everynight ...
you told me tht you'll love me like a best fren did but I told myself ... All of this sweet dream will broke in one day when you be with her. I knew tht , I can feel what you're thinking . i can sense what the fuck is going on ...
Maybe you tot tht I'm thinking too much but this is real ... this is what I fell and sense . and boy ,don't tell yr gf she's thinking too much . She think because she care , she love , she dont want to lose you ..
Yea , I'm not going to get back cause I knew you'd gave up on me and so I do .. So , I just want to blog about what I want to say since no one willing to lend an ear ...
One more things , I'm not immature by doing this because this is what I got frm the love lesson , I appreciate and feel grateful to you ! Because I learnt alot frm this lesson ..
Sometimes , teenagers are not immature because thy're just being/doing what a normal teenagers used to be .. And think of it ... If i'm immature so do you ?
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