The more i think about life. the more I feel that it is meaningless to live on this world. Yea. Haing bad day again, as usual. I tried to go to a mall alone and thought of getting something I dont need (because this activity usually will cheer me up a little) but shopping doesn't work this time.
There is no one that I can blame for making me sad though. Nothing. I am the reason that I make myself feels sad. So do happiness, I am the one that make myself happy all the time. No one is ever here with me when I'm really down or upset. No one give a fuck about how I feel.
It is a choice to be happy or sad. No one/nothing can cheer you up. If you feeling happy when you receive a Chanel handbag when you're very sad it is because you choose to believe that Chanel bring you happiness. If you dont choose to believe on it, you will still feeling sad.
I choose to feel sad most of the time. Even at the very little thing will affect me. I dont know if this is good or bad but I do know that it help me realize so many things that I have mistaken all the while, family, love, friends and all shit.
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