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This might be a joke for you. 

Being a fashion designer or anything to do with fashion has always been the thing that I wanted to do since I'm in secondary school.

I have yet to achieve it still. 

Seeing people doing what I always wanted to do is quite..... demotivating. 

Anyway, 

I am here in happy mood. :)

It wasn't a good day but I manage to smile, truthfully. 

Do good, look good, feel good will be my mission and vision from dont know when onwards.

Before I forget, this post was suppose to be a part 2 of the "nolstagic" night with friends.

Not sure if part 2 i the correct way to titled this. Maybe it wasn't....

So here's what happens;

My friend, she was in Switzerland for 3 - 4 years for studies. She went there alone right after secondary school finished. I asked her how she feels on the first da. Not kidding, I can absolutely feel her fear of being at a strange place at such young age. 

Then I thought to myself, I'm really lucky that my parents weren't rich and didn't leave me alone in some strange country. 

Yea, of course it is a good experience and good way to learn independence but living independently at the age of 18 is really scary.... 

Guess most of you people only leave home when you're about 20 - 21 which is when you have a rough idea about how the world looks like. Hmmm. maybe I should say you would already have some sort of expectation about living in another country. 

Imagine this girl, she was only 18 and she knows nothing more than wearing uniform to a conservative government school. 

All these stories about living alone, traveling alone really tempting me.. Tempting me to leave like now.

How great if there is no responsibilities that I need to bear, no worries that I need care, no family that I need to explain to, no one that I have to say goodbye to...

I will just leave bravely without even a second of thought. 

I can still leave, do what I want but it will never be as spontaneous as I want. 

It will be well-planned and prepared. 

Sometime.

Just sometime.

I thought it will be good if I do something spontaneously. Something as in leaving home, getting married or maybe just as simple as getting a short hair?

It so tiring everytime everything needs to be planned and prepared. When things dont go well as planned, life ruined...

Feels like I'm just digging a hole for myself to get trapped in. Hahaha