Making it... a habit.

So I have been drinking, quite a lot recently.
No wasn't drunk, not even tipsy.

You know you wont get drunk with a heavy heart. I have too much to tell but no one there to listen.

I didnt want to get drunk.

Apparently, I dont know what I want from drinking. Maybe it just suits the mood.

I had 2 cocktails from this awesome bar named Okamase. I dont know if any of my friend like it, but I'm pretty sure you do. If we were back together, I'll definitely come here with you for all kind of celebrations and days.

My colleague asked me out for a drink so I thought why not just us girls for some talk. Then her friends all came one by one. I was quite happy to see some cute guy and thought we would be having a good night together.

Then I ended up drinking with my friends which also not very bad. It's just that I should still stay alone. I was wrong to thought that Im ready to start seeing other guys but there's still something holding me back.

I could go all out and have fun with them in the club if I'm willing to. No. Just not what I want for now.

I guess I will still keep drinking even though it is expensive.
Nothing seems to be better than a drink now.

Thanks for leaving.
Thanks for everything.