Me.

Trying to not think about something is harder than to let it haunt you. I went out all day and leave my work behind.
I've been doing this for quite some time. Not getting my work done.

I feel so empty.
Its like before I met him, my heart was full and then since dont know when I decided to open it up and dig a huge hole to let him stay inside. Then, he has left now, this big hole was left big and wide open. No matter whatever I try to stuff in, it never filled.


No, I didn't want to forget about him and let memories fill the hole. It's stupid but I really want to wait for him, I know we could be the best if we ever try it out again.
But right now, I really need to get over this feeling, it is messing up my life, schedule and work.

Emotional, depress? Not those words anymore, I'm getting a little bit insane.
Drowning in this sadness really driving me crazy. I want to be able to laugh happily, truly from the bottom of my heart.
Maybe just a little bit more time then everything will be good.

I have hope and I will not lost the thankfulness for being able to feel everyday.