Fear.

I've been slacking for almost one month since college ended.

Time like these given me so much time to think... thinking about everything, good and bad. 

I guess I am really upset that college ended so fast. It feels like I'm losing friends again, losing someone that is precious to me, losing memories, losing time, losing myself because I really not sure about the road to future. 

What should I do. 

I really hate losing friends because they are hard to get, hard to get someone that can talk to you almost about everything. Those chilling time we have. Hard to maintain a good friendship. Almost all high school close friends are getting far apart from me. That is really sad to me. I cherish everyone around me. 

Time gone, we changed. Nothing stay. 

I am so afraid of losing people that I loved so much. Especially, my boyfriend. I couldn't imagine losing him. 

I thought I was independent enough but no. There are still things that I rely on him. 

Everything is moving away from me and I am trying my best to catch them and hopefully they will walk with me/  

I dont want to be alone throughout this whole journey. I want someone to share my feelings, my dreams, my memories...