Paranoid

Maybe, there is nobody like me as much as myself in this world.

Sometimes I just don't know what to feel. I've been neglecting my family, giving all my attention to my boyfriend and friends. (Mostly on boyfriend because he is leaving soon) I feel so guilty, I asked myself "Do my family actually deserve my attention, care and concern?". Yea, I know it's stupid to ask this questions. I just get so frustrated when I give them all I can and it turns up to be unappreciated. That feeling has totally bring me down.

Maybe, I am down because boyfriend is leaving soon.

That fear of losing someone is terrible. I cant stop imagining what if UK change him? What if working change me?
I hope the feeling we have for each other stay still.

Maybe, I am just too paranoid.