"A regret in my life""A girl who doesn't even appreciate my patience and carefulness in relationship""Trust me, you will move on quickly. you're just sad and all for now"
"I'm not the easiest guy that will get over things".
Those words from your mouth are really really really hurtful.
It gets tougher and tougher each day. Those hectic work days are now over and I confronted to my bosses about the problems I had.
They are not surprise because it has obviously and seriously affected my work, my emotions, my
actions, my everything.
Look at the bright side, I didn't break down at that time. I only break down like what.... 6 months later. I deserve claps.
Without my friends and those helpful colleagues I cant even survive a day. I am really glad that they have given their time to talk to me about nonsense. Hanging out with me.
Thank you very much.
Wei Wen, I am sure this is not easy for you.
So do I, unwillingly breaking up with someone I thought that I will spend the rest of my life with.
I have flaws that you cant accept, you hate so much. Thanks for pointing out but its really hateful when you pointed out those mistake I've don even before we get together ? Why dont you just leave me already even before we get started?
Saying me a regret, a girl that dont deserve a good guy, a girl that rushed into relationship because of "desperation", a girl that will get a guy soon after a break up (you even tried guessing that it will happen in few months time) ....
Is it necessary to insult me that way? Like seriously?
I hope I am the first girlfriend that get all that from you. Then I would convince myself that you just love me too much and that's ur way of letting it go.
Right?
No one is living a better life than you here.
If you're suffering with your over thinking thoughts and life problems, you may leave, leave me for good.
What about me?
I got no choice here. I gotta stay even volcano erupted, the sky falls...
I cant leave my family if they started a fight over a small thing and get me involve in their fight. All I can do was just sit and talk and yell at them (if i need to).
I cant leave my "assignment" behind and tell teacher that I dont want to pass up. I cant just skip classes like how I used to.
I have got responsibility at work. I need to finish every single task that assigned to me. No one will be helping me out and I still get scolded.
There's basically no stop for me in the past 6 months.
It's not healthy, I wasn't shifting focus from sadness to work.
I am just "accumulating sadness", my time are so crazy I cant even think about stuff other than work. Whenever my mind went blank I will just tear not because you came into my mind.
That's just the feeling that I'm holding all the time. I need to relieve.
You've been traveling around, making new friends and telling me life isn't easy for you there.
I'm trying to make money for making my own life better here but ended got my money spent on the new house, jobless sister and mother.
No one appreciate what I did for the family. That's fine.
Client doesn't value my work, my contributions. Some colleagues think I'm just a clown. That's fine.
You wanna leave, that's fine.
I just cant stand when you started insulting. It really got me crazy like so crazy.
I thought of just killing myself and get off from all these "responsibilities" and "realities". They are so heavy and keep pressuring me all the time.
Well, sorry for the negativity but the negativity from people around me, from MH17 have affected me.
I was holding shield trying to protect myself from negativity. I failed and it wasn't easy to fight alone.
All I have got is my brain with me.
I just need a place to vent and relive and here is it.
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